Isaiah 43:2

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you."

It's funny how so much can change in one day. I woke up yesterday feeling an immense amount of love and reflected on that and how I've sometimes self-sabotaged that. I still do have love in my life, without a doubt, I know that. Do you ever feel like there's a battle you face everyday and for a split second, there's this agony of it'll be never ending? For you that might look like a toxic work space, difficulties of balancing being a parent, going through a season of hardship, finances etc.

For me, that's epilepsy. There's so many days I am so confident in just about everything because I pray in the morning, I feed my soul with the Lord's word and ready to take on whatever comes my way. There's so many curveballs in a day and, most of the time, I don't have the thought of, "Man, today just defeated me." But last night, through tears, that thought creeped in the depths of my mind.

There's no question of, "Do Christians have hard days because they're filled with the holy spirit, they have faith in God, they know there will be a day where there will be no more sorrow, tears or pain?" Of course we do because we're human. We have hard days quite a bit. We run through valleys and climb mountains where it seems like you can't see the top.

Yesterday was filled with two seizures and paralysis after the second one. Just physical and mental agony. The reality of what I'm faced with is something that may never end in my lifetime. I've seen improvement that I don't take for granted, that I've been blessed with. There's also the reality where my day might feel like consumption of everything. The drowning.

If we go to the question I stated above, the answer is, "yes." Then comes the after, which is the beauty in all of this. I have the chance to tell you that there will be a day that all of this disappears. The corruption that the Fall caused will be no more. God always wins. Always. He makes sure that we are not consumed by tough waters or the fire of this life and let us rejoice today that our place in His kingdom is secure for those who say Christ is Lord of all.